Beatrice Leola Harris

It's a very simple reason. God. No matter how beat down I was, for some reason, I kept getting back up. Don't me wrong, it wasn't easy standing back up but I did, because I was never a victim, just battle-weary. Every day is a battle for me; sometimes I'm unscathed, other times, I take some hits, medically and mentally. Being autistic and coping with being subject to narcissistic abuse by my father, bullying in the school system, and being subject to corruption in my own city, it could drive anyone into the abyss.

But the undeniable loyalty and dedication from my husband, who never once doubted me, drove me forward. He never said I couldn't do it, he said you can do it.

To my friends, my true friends, who know who I'm talking about, because they motivated me with their positive input.

To the poets' society, led by Hayden Wayne, that told me that I am a force to be reckoned with, and to unleash my inner power of the word.

Mrs. Genie Abrams, If you ever read this, thank you for showing me kindness, in times of internal chaos. You are a true lightworker, in your own right.

To the folks at the Newburgh Free Library, that definitely helped me fall back in love with my intellectuality.

To the businesses that deserve all the love and support in this time of chaos.

To the disability community, that showed me that my disabilities don't define me.

The meetings I had with the most amazing people, who could see my passion, who encouraged me, thank you all.

The best career advice I’ve ever received came from close artistic friends, who emphasized the importance of recognizing and valuing my own contributions. I also collaborate closely with my husband on creative projects, which has reinforced the power of partnership and shared vision in pursuing meaningful work.

Stay humble, give yourself credit where it’s due without letting ego take over, and focus on building your own supportive network. To all artists, remember that reinvention is not a detour—it is often the most authentic path forward. It affirms that women who address trauma, environmental harm, abuse, and systemic failure are not “too much.” We are responding thoughtfully and appropriately to a world that too often expects us to absorb harm silently.

The biggest challenges I’ve faced in my field stem from navigating life as a disabled woman on the autism spectrum with multiple medical issues since 2009, including emergency back surgery and heart complications in 2025. That year brought significant personal and professional upheaval, from a medical emergency and my Rap Fame account being cloned to a betrayal by a mentee and a strained relationship with my father. Yet these experiences have also opened profound opportunities for growth and reinvention. In December 2025, I experienced a pivotal transformation that sparked my artistic rebirth as the "Angel of Darkness," allowing me to channel adversity into creative expression and resilience. These challenges have deepened my perspective, strengthened my voice, and inspired work that speaks truthfully to the human experience.

In both my work and personal life, I value integrity and compassion, choosing to face my own challenges rather than seeking comfort at the expense of others. I maintain a critical perspective on established systems, advocating for environmental protection, anti-corruption measures, and social accountability. Spiritually, I honor free will and the importance of each individual’s path, while striving to remain humble—I aim to excel without stepping on others, staying grounded in the middle and true to my principles.