Keeper of the Ledger
A meditation on silence, truth, and what remains unrecorded in the margins of power.
The Keeper of the Ledger
He scooted—
a dry, raspy sound—
slipping back into the rot
whenever a heavy boot
or a patent-leather shoe
passed too close to his ribs.
Truth be told,
he was never in their way.
Toads prefer the margins.
They do not invite the light.
He was a keeper of echoes—
a vessel
for what no one thought to claim.
I learned early
how a thing becomes official:
repeat it until the air thickens,
scrub the paper
until it forgets what it held.
Suddenly,
the truth is a trespasser.
No raised voices.
No broken glass.
Only excellence—
a cold, polished stone
set at the threshold.
And when it was not met,
something needle-thin rose—
a quiet venom
that never left.
It settled into the body
until even the body
began to doubt its own shadow.
The children learned
how little it took—
a sigh
to collapse a room.
So the toad waited,
a gargoyle in the weeds,
watching the house
hold its breath.
They wrote it down in ledger lines—
clean, contained,
a version that did not bleed.
They said the water knew its place.
They said the land held.
The river does not.
And the toad—
at the edge of the rotting step—
knows which one is telling the truth.
I've been in the legal field for almost 30 years as a paralegal, and I've been writing for about 5 years, focusing mostly on Southern writings. I'm currently completing my graduate degree in October and plan to pursue my doctoral degree in community and social sciences. My work is driven by empathy for others and serving our community, especially underprivileged youth. I use my writing to bring attention to those…
